The Things We (or maybe just I) Do

Guys. I just did this. I put my 6 month old in front of the tv so she would be happy. 

Do I feel like a bad mom? A little bit. I can hear my granny chastising that family who uses the tv as a babysitter. I can see the words of someone writing about that mom at the park on her phone. I just know that someone out there somewhere would not be impressed. 

And yes. I would much rather her be happy with some toys. Do believe me. But she is not.

So I pushed the guilt way deep down. Because I can't make her happy today unless I am holding her. whilst standing. Because I could barely get her to sleep in her bed at nap time, which she is usually a champ at. Because I'm up 3+ times a night with her. Because I'm tired. And because I just needed a few minutes to myself. To not be rocking a baby or, alternatively, listening to her cry.

So there she sits. In her exersaucer. Watching Disney Junior. Happy. 

To, my sweet grandmother whom I love. To, that onlooker at the park watching mom look at her phone because she spends all day everyday with her kids and the park entertains them for a moment without her. To, everyone everywhere who would never but their baby in front of the tv, who would rock them forever, who always pushes them on the swing, watching diligently, playing incessantly. I'm sorry. 

But I would do it again.  

And alas, the tv has lost it's entertainment value. Here I come sweet girl! Let us walk some more.

Kids Know

Kids know.

They know when you've stayed up way too late talking to your husband just because you like each other.

They know when you didn't nap that day you should have because you wanted to see who won in your tv show.

They know when you've spent the last five hours being sick between attempting to sleep.

They know when you've had a very busy weekend and just need a little extra sleep.

They always know.

And how I know they know?

Because those are the nights when my three year old who always sleeps through the night, doesn't.

Those are the nights when my small babe cries for no apparent reason for an hour in the middle of the night.

 Or when she is just up every hour.

Those are the mornings after when my three year old is up right at 7.

Or my 6 month old is.

But never both. Just to rub it in.

Kids know...... beware.